CHAPTER 11

One more note about 2006: in the DVD that came with Josh's CD Awake, he talks about the lyrics for the song "Machine", which he wrote. And it is interesting that he says the song is for all those people who "have been bullied" in the past.

Hmmmm.... I'll have to go listen to that song again.....

Now on to the year 2007!!

What a year! Such a rollercoaster ride for me..... and what an amazing year for Josh! He was on FIRE! At the beginning of the year he launched his "Awake Tour" and it was a smashing success--- so much so that had a second leg in late summer. And during the summer he created a masterpiece, with David Foster's help: the stunning album NOEL. It has to be one of the greatest CD's I have ever heard in my life. And so it is no wonder that it became the number-one-selling CD of the year, and Josh became the number-one-selling artist of the year. I was SO happy for him!

But back to my story.... I began the year a bit upset... I had been banned on Josh's message board on 12/28/06... again. My big crime? Going in a thread there, where fans were arguing about JOSH'S performance on TV, and posting a link to THIS forum and telling everyone this was a much friendlier place. And then, about that time, arrogant Nay was acting like she was God's gift to Josh's fan base and the entire world, once again. I spoke up here about all that (of course) and if you are interested in what happened, read the thread HERE. You can see in that thread SuperNay posting all about me "libeling" her, blah blah blah....

After that skirmish, I decided to try my best to put everything behind me and just focus on the good stuff coming up. I was already getting excited about Josh coming to Dallas for a concert in March. And the concert was really wonderful, of course. And during the walk-thru for "In Her Eyes", Josh grabbed my hand! (He has very soft hands!)

But unfortunately, two very upsetting things happened in March. Josh's record company started a public MySpace music page for him, and I was so happy about that, and immediately tried to add him as my friend. While other people quickly got his page added as their friend, my "add" never went thru. At first I thought it was just a "glitch", or delay, but I finally realized that they had blocked me from being Josh's friend on his public MySpace music page! I even tried to start up a different MySpace page and while the initial add worked, as soon as "someone" found out it was me, he would be deleted from my friend list. I knew someone at WB was watching me and the Pub, but this was astounding: that they would go to the trouble of hunting me down and "blacklisting" me from his public MySpace page. And for what purpose? That page is not a message board. The only reason that I could come up with, or that anyone else could come up with, was to intentionally inflict emotional pain upon me. How cruel and heartless. Banning me from the boards and his charity wasn't good enough-- they had to block me from his MySpace too! Now, I know most people would find it silly or stupid for me to get upset over not being able to be a "friend" on a stupid MySpace page-- especially when that page is basically just a grand advertisement.... a marketing tool. But it wasn't the idea of not being able to have him on my MySpace friend list, but the realization that someone's hate for me was SO intense that they would do anything they could, and go to such lengths, for the sole purpose of hurting me. And of course, worst of all were the comments by many that is was Josh himself that "ordered" me to be blocked from his MySpace friend list. And words like that DO hurt. Of course, one of the ways I would cheer myself up was to play a "snarky game". So that's what I did. I created another MySpace page and added Josh as my friend, and then challenged the hateful person at WB to "find me". I gave clues on what they could search for.... I had called my page "SKCUSRBW"... read that backwards... har har har. Yep, they eventually found me, and deleted me as Josh's friend.... again. Thinking back, it's actually rather amusing.

The other thing that happened in March was really upsetting. I had been talking to a friend for over a year in emails. She was mysterious and for some reason didn't want to tell me her name or where she lived. It drove me batty, but she was so kind, and helped me handle all the bad things along the way, so I could never really get angry with her. She kept promising me that she would tell me who she was someday. At the beginning of 2007 she didn't email me very much, and she also sent me a photograph of someone that I didn't know, with no accompanying explanation. The night of Josh's concert in Dallas, many fans gathered after the concert in hopes that Josh's bus would stop and he would come out to talk to his fans.  While waiting in the crowd of about 30 or 40 people, I saw the woman in photo in the mysterious email that my friend had sent! I freaked out and my daughter encouraged me to walk up to her and ask her if she knew me. She gave me her first name, but refused to tell me anything else. She acted strange, and said she didn't know me, but when I returned to my daughter, she said it was obvious that she knew something. About 15 minutes later I got the nerve to walk up to her again, as she was talking to another fan and that other fan mentioned her FOJG name. I explained more about the mysterious email, but she acted like she didn't want to talk to me anymore, and walked away. On the ride home that night, I was totally confused and frustrated. A week later my email friend said that she could not talk to me anymore, and gave no explanation. It was abrupt and it hurt-- losing a friend, even a "cyberfriend", is really devastating. Using my detective skills, I have since learned more about my secretive friend, and the identity of the mysterious woman I met that night of the concert. It has become a fascinating "background story" to everything that has happened to me publicly, but I am not going to say anything more about it here, for reasons of privacy. I still don't have all the answers, but I do have some major clues that may be a partial explanation of why I have been so "watched" by Josh's "people". And to any of Josh's people who may be reading this post: if you think I am some sort of "threat" to Josh in any way whatsoever, then you have a screw loose upstairs. I may be eccentric, outrageous, strange, opinionated, stubborn, sarcastic, and naughty, but I assure you I would never do anything to hurt Josh or anyone else. However I come across on the internet, if you met me in person, I am a gentle soul who wouldn't hurt a fly. Well, I have killed a few flies and other insects in the past, but nothing larger than a large cockroach...lol.

One more interesting note about my mysterious friend: she is the person I sent the sock monkey ornament to in November 2006......

Now on to the next "Grobanite Adventure" in April 2007... or should I say "fiasco". As usual, this forum was a place for people to discuss what was happening without fear of having your thread be nowhere to be found after you take a potty break. After Josh's Vegas concert, there was a party and there were many fans expecting Josh to come out and make an appearance there, as was promised by the people putting on the event. The thread containing the posts of many angry fans was deleted in FOJG, as usual. Poor Josh-- if there is ever any controversy involving his fans... if they are ever upset about anything, he sure can't always get the full story, because they delete anything that he might want to actually read! The Vegas situation was like so many others in that regard, but Josh could have come here to get an idea of what was going on. Click HERE for the thread about this incident, if you are interested. As you can see, Brian Avnet eventually posted an apology to the fans and I was very happy to see that!

That's enough for this chapter....

Next is the summer of 2007, when Sue Witkin and Lynne Malone visit the Pub, and post!